Tuesday, December 23, 2008

i have something to admit to you all

I quit running.


Well, maybe not for good...the rain certainly hasn't helped.

But let me tell ya, two weeks ago to this day, I started out running and immediately, I felt defeated.  Going on 8 weeks of running and I hadn't lost one pound.  And you all know my hate-affair extreme dislike-affair with jogging.  It was really hard for me to get to the point where I would try it.  33 years, hard.  But I did it, with the sole intent of losing some poundage off my not-so-petite frame.

And I'm sorry, but after almost 2 months, I should see some results, right?  Is that not too much to ask?  No, my pants did not fit better.  And I don't care if muscle weighs more than fat!  Now before you mention it:  my diet.  I wasn't exactly strict with it.  I was of the mind that if I had stinkin' ran that day, so I was going to allow myself a brownie.  Or two.  Honestly, I didn't go overboard, but I wasn't following my weight watchers points to a T.  Or even to a U.  Or, you could say, I watched them, but I watched them climb higher and higher.  *grin*  Not the point.

So, two weeks ago when we started out at 5:45 and it was cold and after just a few minutes my knee started to ache, I just stopped and said, "I'm not doing this today."  Dan tried to talk me out of it, but there was only so much he could offer in defense.  Sure, I should be losing weight.  We both knew it.  Anyway, I cried the whole way home, feeling utterly defeated and disappointed in myself for quitting.  But come on, if it's not doing me any good weight-wise, I'm not motivated.

I know I got healthier.  My lungs, my legs, everything built up more muscle as well as my ability to endure; my breathing. . . I get it, I was probably healthier.  But I. Don't. Care.  I want to watch that number go down!

Anyway, since then, it's been quite wet and rainy, and I don't know if I've quit for good or not.  I liked being able to say I was a runner and sharing my latest accomplishments.  So I may return some day.  But.  Here's my point.  I quit running on that Tuesday.  The day after, I got serious with weight watchers and have been really doing well on the diet.  And, in those two weeks, I've lost 5 pounds.  Hmm. . .  7 weeks of running, no weight loss.  2 weeks of eating right, 5 pounds.  It doesn't take a genius to see what works for me.  Also explains how I never really lost any weight going to aerobics at the stake center for 2 years straight.  {love you girls, but let's be honest, it wasn't working for me}

So, that's my confession.  I'm a quitter.  I hope to pick it up again some day, but it'll likely not be until it warms up a bit.  And while I have something working for me, I'm just going to celebrate it and be happy and avoid all the treats that keep piling up on my doorstep.  'Tis the season to just say no to finely wrapped cookies.


The Bluths said...

So you're saying you don't want me bringing cookies by right? :)

And even though I'm extremely offended that you're not coming to my workouts anymore, I'll get over it...eventually. ;)

Jaime said...

I did the same thing Amie, I didn't lose ANY weight when I ran for months. It was also just way too early for me!
Great job on your weight loss and good luck with withstanding those yummy treats! (your better than me!)

Jennifer (jkincolorado) said...

I've never been a runner either -- too top heavy :)

I can sympathize about working out and not losing weight. I don't get that high when I exercise -- I literally have to make myself do it for the health of it.

Merry Christmas!

Torrie said...

Amie darling I was so happy for you to be running, you were excited about it. Running comes with bragging rights too. But I never run and don't plan on starting any time soon. You know the only reason I go to aerobics is to socialize, so no hard feelings there. I hope that you can stick to the points. I wish you the best and enjoy your Christmas!

jinxi~ aka angi said...

What works for others may not work for you.. At least you can say you RAN.. and be proud!
Best wishes with your future weight loss endeavors... :o)

Marjorie said...

I think some people are just made for running and others aren't. Maybe you're one of the aren't but I hope you'll find something you like to do. Maybe you could add music to your cooking videos and you can dance around and have a crockpotting/aerobic synergy (came here by way of Steph's Crockpotting blog).

Lorie said...

Do something you like. And do it WITH WW. Congrats on the 5 lbs!!

Dahlene said...

I like Marjorie's comment. I think she's right. Some people are made for running and some aren't. I think you should do a cooking/dance video too. Try it and post it on your blog. You can take a survey to see if you are any good at it, and maybe you will lose weight at the same time you are cooking!! We can dream.